Episode 54
Episode #52 Part 1 - Finding Our Universal Team: An Interview With Brianne DiDino
Associating with your "universal team" sound a bit spiritual, but it can be the ultimate gateway for you to walk through and create some of the most meaningful creations of your life. Listening to those team members' voices can help to sustain not only the life that you are leading, but perhaps guide you into the most wildest adventures to generate systemic change in your own life and in the lives of others. Today's guest, an intuitive life coach by the name of Brianne DiDino, will share in a two-part episode many of the different types of explorations that we can unlock through her own unique experiences. In Part One, she explores the concept of meaningful relationships and how the struggles of growing up stunted her for a long period of time until she started to consult that team to move forward from her previous career to a whole new adventure.
WARNING: This episode discusses suicide, depression, anxiety, and child abuse. Although these are very heavy subject matters that require great care and attention when discussing, these subjects are pivotal to the important understanding of our guest's way of navigating through any sort of unique challenge. Consult authorities, particularly when you know someone that is going through this, to seek out assistance and help with navigating through these very difficult conversations.
Guest Bio
Brianne DiDino is the Owner and Founder of Beyond Grounded. Her years as a Medical Laboratory Scientist enhanced her troubleshooting abilities. However, adversities throughout life propelled her forward learning more about compassion, connectedness and powerful purpose. Brianne embraces being highly intuitive and loves highlighting this gift within others. Her passion of being an Intuitive Life Coach, Author and Speaker came alive after the many years of hardships. During these times, she learned the importance of how your painful moments become your best friend and guiding light. She firmly believes that understanding their influence and value in your life gives the power to create the future you dream about. By using her coaching along with other proven methods, empowered individuals explore and transform experience-based beliefs to create a more authentic, fulfilling life.
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Transcript
Welcome to the podcast where relationships, confidence, and
Intro:determination, all converge into an amazing, heartfelt experience.
Intro:This is Speaking From The Heart.
Joshua:Welcome back to episode number 52 of Speaking From the Heart, and
Joshua:this is going to be another two part episode, which I was really excited and
Joshua:just an emotional mess even before we even started recording this episode,
Joshua:and I think that you were going to see probably the most riveting interviews
Joshua:that I have ever done when it comes to just digging into the soul of a person.
Joshua:Now for this episode, I must put a warning in that we do talk about suicidal
Joshua:tendencies and about how those things have been triggers for a lot of what
Joshua:our guest has been through, and I even mentioned some of the things that I've
Joshua:been through as well, so if those are things that do trigger you, please stop
Joshua:listening to this episode, although, for those that are struggling, I really
Joshua:encourage you to listen to this because maybe that is the threshold that allows
Joshua:you to get over what you're going through.
Joshua:Let's introduce Brianne DiDino, who was my guest, and she is the owner
Joshua:and founder of Beyond Grounded.
Joshua:Her years as a medical laboratory scientist enhanced her troubleshooting
Joshua:abilities, however, adversities throughout her life propelled her
Joshua:forward learning more about compassion, connectedness and powerful purpose.
Joshua:She embraces being highly intuitive and loves highlighting this gift
Joshua:for others, which we talk a lot about in over these two parts.
Joshua:Her passion of being an intuitive life coach, author, and speaker came alive
Joshua:after those many years of hardships and during these times she learned the
Joshua:importance of how your painful moments become your best friend and guiding light.
Joshua:She firmly believes that understanding the influences and value in life give
Joshua:the power to create the future that you dream about, and by using her coaching,
Joshua:along with other methods, it helps empower individuals explore and transform
Joshua:experience-based benefits and beliefs to create a more authentic, fulfilling life.
Joshua:Now I have to say, there have been many people over these last several months
Joshua:since I started this podcast that I have even mentioned have been some of the
Joshua:most authentic creatures of this world.
Joshua:Brianne saw through everything that I have been through, a very broken person,
Joshua:mind you, before I even became a coach myself, and was able to unlock some of
Joshua:the things that, even for myself, I'm still sitting here in awe and wonder even
Joshua:after it's been a long time, even after all these experiences have happened in
Joshua:my life, and still thinking about what I could potentially do to become some
Joshua:of the best versions of even myself, and I think that this riveting interview
Joshua:takes shape of what is really necessary.
Joshua:Not only the people that we have around us, but also how we overcome some of
Joshua:the most biggest frustrations that we ever have, and in part one, we dig into
Joshua:a little bit of that and so much more.
Joshua:But with that, let's go to the episode.
Joshua:All right.
Joshua:We're here with Brian DiDino.
Joshua:Brianne, thanks for sharing your heart with us today.
Brianne:Hi, Josh.
Brianne:Thanks for having me.
Joshua:Yes, thank you, and I have to say to my audience before I even hit
Joshua:the record button, I had a out of body experience with Brianne and just opening
Joshua:up with her and, Brianne, I let the audience know a lot about you before we
Joshua:even started with your bio, which has been really impressive, because I don't think
Joshua:I've ever had anybody on the show yet that has turned from a medical laboratory
Joshua:scientist into what you do now as a spiritual life coach, so I'm just really
Joshua:fascinated by how you even got to being a medical scientist to start out with.
Joshua:Can you start with that?
Brianne:Okay.
Brianne:Well, as most people, we all have experiences that kind of guide us, and
Brianne:when I was 18, I was diagnosed with ITP, which is an autoimmune disorder
Brianne:where my spleen killed my own platelets.
Brianne:When I was younger, I always thought that I would be a lawyer or pretty much
Brianne:I thought I'd be a lawyer, a highly analytical, very much about digging
Brianne:for the facts and truth, but when I had this experience at 18, I had to have
Brianne:blood work done three to four times a week to monitor my platelets and I
Brianne:also was seeing a specialist at Hershey Medical Center who was such a godsend.
Brianne:They gave me a month to live if they couldn't control the fact that I was
Brianne:having like, a self-induced hemophilia, okay, so they didn't know I could just
Brianne:spontaneously start bleeding and they couldn't stop it and it's just interesting
Brianne:when you're 18 and you don't really think much about exiting, although I
Brianne:must tell you that I was pretty much had suicidal tendencies my whole life
Brianne:because I never felt like I fit in, and the only thing that really kept me
Brianne:here was the fact that I really loved my brother very much and every time I
Brianne:would have that thought process of I was better off, like exiting, he always
Brianne:popped close to me and it was like, "Wow."
Brianne:I never wanted him to feel any type of pain like that.
Brianne:That was always what kind of kept me grounded, but then fast forward
Brianne:and I had my own spleen killing my own platelets and I had my blood
Brianne:work done and I had bone marrow biopsies and was constantly monitored.
Brianne:I had high doses of Prednisone and other medicines and was very much monitored.
Brianne:I kind of wondered, "Well, where does that go?
Brianne:Once they take it and put it in a tube, where does it go?", and that's when
Brianne:that whole process opened up to being a laboratory scientist, figuring out where
Brianne:that went and what did they do with it?
Brianne:How did they know my number?
Joshua:Wow, and it makes me really think about some of my guests that
Joshua:I've had getting to this point where I have talked about even their
Joshua:traumatic injuries that they've had.
Joshua:I've had somebody that had undergone brain surgery to be able to then function
Joshua:in society and I've also had people that have overcome some terrible accident
Joshua:that they've had in their lives in which then they've had to rediscover
Joshua:themselves and transform into what they are, and you talked about suicide, so
Joshua:just for my listeners, again, I always preach this in any episode which we
Joshua:talk about this sort of subject matter.
Joshua:I'll put in the episode notes.
Joshua:If you ever know somebody that is experiencing any sort of crisis, I
Joshua:really encourage you to call 988.
Joshua:It's the National Hotline in the United States to help get resources available.
Joshua:Have somebody that's clinically trained to help with that situation, and even the
Joshua:website that helps support this, which is the National Institutes of Mental
Joshua:Health, which I've usually have referenced in past episodes, has a lot of great
Joshua:information that you should read through.
Joshua:Brianne, is the suicide that you were talking about happened because of just
Joshua:not only this autoimmune disease that you explained about, or is it something that
Joshua:was really happening deep inside of you?
Joshua:What was really putting you in that-
Brianne:It was deep inside.
Brianne:We're pretty open in our society today talking about like empaths and people
Brianne:who are spiritually sensitive, and a lot of times when you're little, you
Brianne:don't realize how connected you really are, and the fact that I interacted
Brianne:with the other side since I was little.
Brianne:I saw them, I felt them.
Brianne:I saw them, I heard them, and it was very difficult because, growing up, it was
Brianne:almost like parents in society teach you that, "Oh, that's your imaginary friends",
Brianne:or that because you're so little, it's almost like they invalidate the reality
Brianne:of which you actually are seeing is real, so growing up in that, it made me feel
Brianne:like there was something wrong with me.
Brianne:It made me feel like no one understood me.
Brianne:Other kids were out playing, and I was more isolating.
Brianne:I pretty much stuck to myself.
Brianne:I played once I warmed up and felt it okay and accepted, but for the most
Brianne:part, there wasn't a single kid around me that was talking to me about the
Brianne:angels that they saw last night, or someone else on the other side, or even,
Brianne:I'm going to be honest with you, I saw a lot of darkness on the other side.
Brianne:I grew up in a home that was extremely unstable.
Brianne:I had a father who was an alcoholic who brought other people into the
Brianne:home, so as much as there's light, there's also dark, and it is kind of
Brianne:a difficult thing for a little one to talk about, and it wasn't until I was
Brianne:about 28 when I even like finally grew.
Brianne:Everyone thought that I had such fire and courage that I could just be so open and
Brianne:I just told people how it was and I was so factual and to the point, but honestly
Brianne:if I truly was, I wasn't living a hundred percent authentic during that time.
Brianne:I was, at that age, I probably was living only about 65% authentic because
Brianne:of the fact that I wasn't willing to discuss and talk about and feel
Brianne:like I was being judged or crazy for talking about the fact that I've always
Brianne:talked to the other side, and a lot of that sensitivity is really what made
Brianne:me feel like I didn't belong here.
Joshua:As where you are now, do you feel that you are still out of place,
Joshua:or you don't feel comfortable with maybe the surroundings or maybe the people
Joshua:that are surrounding you from the other side, because I know that for me, and
Joshua:we were even having this conversation before we started this recording,
Joshua:in that I have had a lot of those experiences in my life where those past
Joshua:versions of myself were always talking to me saying, "Yeah, you can't do it.
Joshua:You're never going to be able to do it", and what I didn't share
Joshua:with you is that I actually have had people literally say, "Yeah.
Joshua:I don't know if you really are who you say you are, Josh, because it seems like
Joshua:you're protecting yourself from those other entities or those other people."
Joshua:I guess what I'm asking is, do you feel that you live in the shadows with that
Joshua:even today as you practice, or do you feel like you have overcome that and the
Joshua:person that I'm seeing today is truly free from all that pain or that persecution?
Brianne:I feel like every step that we take forward in, in speaking
Brianne:our truth, gives us a much more.
Brianne:More loving per perspective of ourself.
Brianne:Okay?
Brianne:It gives us a much more loving perspective of ourself.
Brianne:I feel a million percent more comfortable discussing and letting
Brianne:the world know that yes, I do.
Brianne:I used to get really uptight about people wanting to label me as like
Brianne:a medium or a psychic, and yet we all are like, if you even remotely
Brianne:believe that you might, then you have to understand the energy talks energy
Brianne:and tangible talks to avatar tangible.
Brianne:I'm a million percent.
Brianne:However, due to my nature, I also have a like a perfectionist nature,
Brianne:which is a self preserved kind of not good enough inside ourself.
Brianne:However, this is where I found the sweet spot with that, is that I've
Brianne:learned that my perfectionist is actually there to protect me, and it
Brianne:was there so that I could survive things when I was little, that I could not
Brianne:understand, but now that I'm older in a different setting, I don't need it to
Brianne:the intensity that it has always been, so now I feel like I'm getting to that
Brianne:point like I'm writing my book now, and I actually have a working journal
Brianne:that I'm getting ready to publish soon.
Brianne:The inner critic starts kicking in.
Brianne:The perfectionist starts kicking in of how not good of a writer I
Brianne:am, or do I even sound clearly?
Brianne:Is this sound wishy-washy?
Brianne:What's going on, but I have to stop and I have to take a deep breath, and I have
Brianne:to acknowledge the fact that that inner critic, that perfectionist, served me
Brianne:well by keeping me safe and loving me, but then I understand and let her know that
Brianne:I need her to join me in this, that we're not being hurt, that we're not living
Brianne:that life, and I love her for stepping up for me, and that has made such a huge
Brianne:difference where we become more of an ally as opposed to it being such a protecting
Brianne:mechanism in me, if that makes sense.
Joshua:It does, because I have felt, even in my own life, and I have worked
Joshua:with even people through my own business, where I feel like they are their own
Joshua:worst critic, so it's almost as if they're pitting themselves against each
Joshua:other, and what you're saying to me, if I would paraphrase, and you can correct
Joshua:me if I'm wrong, but I feel that it's not about pinning one side against the other.
Joshua:It's about finding that forgiveness, which one of my guests recently
Joshua:had talked about when she was going through two divorces about, yeah,
Joshua:I could hate that other person, but necessarily, I'm not hating that.
Joshua:I want to forgive them because if I hate them, I'm giving them
Joshua:power, so now if we're able to join forces, is what I'm hearing,
Joshua:we are we able to do so much more.
Joshua:Am I understanding that right?
Brianne:Right, and even just a kind of a spin on that take, we all
Brianne:have our demons where we can judge ourself about bad decisions, right?
Brianne:This is my wheelhouse, this is where I love to sit, okay; in the abyss with
Brianne:people, is that we can easily sit and judge ourself and get nowhere, but
Brianne:what I love and what I have done with my life is I've been able to sit in
Brianne:that dark space and I've been able to find out why that was important.
Brianne:If I was not, if I did not understand what it feels like to be suicidal and
Brianne:want to leave, then I also wouldn't know what it was like to really appreciate
Brianne:and be present and love life and see how valuable it is to be present.
Brianne:If I wouldn't have made bad decisions, you know, being so guarded, I was
Brianne:extremely guarded, that I literally would hurt people with facts to keep
Brianne:them away, thinking I was protecting me from getting hurt, when I actually, and
Brianne:the whole time, I was hurting myself by keeping myself away from everyone, but
Brianne:yet, had I not done that, I wouldn't value what closeness and love feels like.
Brianne:I wouldn't value what it feels like to allow someone to love
Brianne:and accept me and receive that.
Brianne:There's such power behind our challenging moments in our relationships
Brianne:and the things that we do, it's also intertwined and connected
Brianne:into our understanding so that we understand what compassion feels like.
Brianne:We understand what love feels like.
Brianne:We understand what genuineness feels like.
Brianne:We understand where someone who is just down and out and you could just go
Brianne:in that space and you just know where they're at because you've been there.
Brianne:You see it, you feel it, and you just know the right thing that you could
Brianne:tell them that kind of puts the fire back in their eyes a little bit where
Brianne:they believe and not so hopeless and downtrodden, and you're going, "Listen.
Brianne:Are all of my clients, and even myself, have become a force to reckon with
Brianne:because of fact of the time that you take to sit in that dark space and
Brianne:actually fall in love with it?", because without that, you would not be you.
Joshua:I feel like that is something that a friend of mine, even one of my guests
Joshua:on episode number six, talked about, which is just about being human-centered, and
Joshua:he shared a story of one of his clients since he operates a gym, coming up to
Joshua:him and he can sense that something was wrong, so it was sort of the energies
Joshua:and getting used to those energies being around us, which, this ties into a
Joshua:question that I had because I feel like you have surrounded yourself with that
Joshua:team, and I love the term that you use on your website, if you don't mind me
Joshua:stealing it is, you call it your universal team, so you talk about God, or the
Joshua:source, angels, guides, and loved ones.
Joshua:Can you tell me a little bit about how those interplay in your life and
Joshua:if you can, can you tie it back into how that ties for maybe somebody that
Joshua:you're working with or how it relates to even my listeners, because I'm sure
Joshua:that, even for me, I have that team and I had to think about that even
Joshua:with the exercise that we were doing before we even started this episode.
Brianne:When we hit the record.
Joshua:Yeah.
Joshua:Yeah, exactly.
Joshua:Can you describe that a little bit?
Brianne:Yeah.
Brianne:I think pretty much the way that I describe it is the fact that
Brianne:even when we feel absolutely alone, you have an entourage.
Brianne:You have your universal team that your body can't physically see, but your
Brianne:body can actually physically feel, okay?
Brianne:It's very much an energy thing and the fact that we're all connected.
Brianne:We're all connected to our source.
Brianne:We're all connected, therefore, energetically to the angels.
Brianne:We're all connected to the guides that we've had in our lifetimes, as well
Brianne:as our loved ones in this lifetime that have transitioned, because the
Brianne:fact that we leave this tangible body and we become energy, we become one
Brianne:back into the energy of all, right?
Brianne:It's one of those things where we have such a web and network at
Brianne:our call, and they're guiding us.
Brianne:They're helping us, but a lot of times people don't realize it's them because
Brianne:they hear their own work, their own voice inside our head, like, how many
Brianne:people can honestly go, "Gosh, why am I talking to myself?', and with the ideas
Brianne:just start scrolling, you're like, "I don't even know why I'm thinking about
Brianne:that", and all you hear is your own voice, and that's because a lot of times,
Brianne:that's what your body is interpreting, because it's hard for your body to go,
Brianne:"Oh my gosh, that's my grandmother or my parent, or a body", once it doesn't
Brianne:have that tangibility, it's almost like your body disconnects from it, and just
Brianne:misses and longs for that person who is not physically there, but energetically
Brianne:on a soul level, they're part of your universal team to help guide you.
Brianne:I'll give you an example of how I tangibly have a universal team.
Brianne:There was two times when I was little that I heard a woman's voice.
Brianne:The first one was when I was really, really little and my brother and I
Brianne:was going on a walk with a friend of the family's, and, this is a little
Brianne:graphic and a little emotional.
Brianne:It could be triggering; so heads up on this.
Brianne:We were going on a walk and he took my brother and I up into the woods and he
Brianne:decided that he was going to like, expose himself, and he would want that of me
Brianne:and my brother, and I kept hearing a woman's voice in my ear going, "Get him
Brianne:to play hide and seek", and when you're little and you're thinking, "Oh my gosh."
Brianne:You feel like you're so far from home, even though it was in the trailer court,
Brianne:but thinking, "Play hide and seek.
Brianne:He's going to cheat."
Brianne:When you're little, you start thinking all these little things, and I kept
Brianne:hearing her going, "Honey, honey, honey.
Brianne:Get him to play, hide and seek", and luckily, nothing intense happened, thank
Brianne:goodness, but being a little one and being exposed in that, it is intense.
Brianne:I'm not taking away from that experience of myself or anyone else who has
Brianne:experienced anything of that nature of being intimately compromised in
Brianne:situations, so I got into the hide and seek and I grabbed my brother's hand and I
Brianne:said, "Run", and we ran clear back to our trailer, to our mom and the rest of the
Brianne:story, you know, obviously played out, but that was one instance where I heard a very
Brianne:distinctive woman's voice telling me what to do, and I did it and we stayed safe.
Brianne:Another one was when I was about seven.
Brianne:I was in a car accident and the driver hit a telephone pool and I wasn't buckled in.
Brianne:I was in the front seat and I almost went through the windshield.
Joshua:Wow.
Brianne:And when I was flying towards the windshield, I heard the woman's voice say,
Brianne:"Baby, you're going to hit three times.
Brianne:Just hang in there."
Brianne:I hit once and I went back and she goes, "Okay, one more", and I hit the second.
Brianne:She goes, "Last one, I promise.
Brianne:Hang in there baby", and I hit the third time, and she said, "Trust
Brianne:me, you're going to be okay", and so when you're little like that, and I
Brianne:distinctively had like I said, I can recount it like it's yesterday and I can
Brianne:hear her voice even today, but she was definitely part of my universal team.
Brianne:I never really asked her if she was connected to me
Brianne:physically in this lifetime.
Brianne:It really hasn't been a significant question for me to ask her.
Brianne:All that's important to me was she was there when I needed
Brianne:her and she kept me safe.
Joshua:Wow.
Joshua:First off, I feel like I've been saying wow a lot for my audience, especially
Joshua:with some of these testimonies, and these are authentic, because I have to
Joshua:take a step back and process all this.
Joshua:For those that have never done a podcast, I have to take a step
Joshua:back and kind of think about, "Well, what do the guests say?
Joshua:What can I say in response to that?", and I say, "Wow", because of, holy moly,
Joshua:first off, there's essentially sexual abuse that you've been through with your
Joshua:brother, with that figure essentially in your life that you're thinking that
Joshua:they're going to take care of you.
Joshua:They essentially took advantage of that privilege, and then, with you
Joshua:being in an accident and hearing this voice saying, "Don't worry.
Joshua:It's only going to hit three times and it's going to be okay afterwards."
Joshua:For some people, I've heard of these incredible stories of just going
Joshua:through something like that, finding this inherent strength, especially if
Joshua:you're a mother or father, you know your kid's trapped in it, you find this
Joshua:sense of superhuman strength and being able to pull them out of a wreckage.
Joshua:I've heard of stories just like yours of "Don't worry, everything's going to be
Joshua:okay", kind of almost divine intervention, although you take the divine out of it,
Joshua:because it is some sort of intervention, no matter what it is, whatever you want to
Joshua:call it, you could call it whatever it is.
Joshua:It makes me feel like, "My gosh.
Joshua:How can you sit here and tell me this and be so open about it, Brianne",
Joshua:because I would be devastated.
Joshua:I mean, yeah, some people can't carry through with life after
Joshua:having all these things and going through what you've gone through.
Joshua:Where do you find this energy, is really my question, because I'm just
Joshua:mesmerized by the fact that you're sitting here, you're very transparent
Joshua:about it and I don't think that I have heard of people that have been
Joshua:willing to really tackle those things, so where does this energy come from?
Joshua:I feel like I already know the answer.
Joshua:You're going to tell me that it's somebody else, right?
Brianne:Well, no, it's me.
Joshua:Ah.
Brianne:This is what I love about working with my clients, and this is
Brianne:how I've really stepped in from being a scientist into my passion and my
Brianne:purpose of being this intuitive life coach is I've had people go," How is
Brianne:it, why are you remaining so calm?"
Brianne:I had a brain tumor in April of 2021 and had brain surgery.
Brianne:What really set us off is I kept hearing, and then this finally
Brianne:was when I finally listened.
Brianne:One of my good friends who I got close with really fast and furious and we
Brianne:knew each other this much time in comparison to other people who knew
Brianne:me even longer, but she was like, "Why am I the one crying, and you're
Brianne:hugging me when you had brain surgery?
Brianne:Do you not feel this?
Brianne:Why are you the one not crying?", and I said to her, " Honey, this isn't my
Brianne:first rodeo", and then I had to think and I'm like, "Well, how the heck am I doing
Brianne:this?", you know, because it's a pretty valid question, but what we really forget
Brianne:and really don't take credit for is all the answers are with inside ourselves,
Brianne:and if you are willing to actually sit in that space and allow yourself to feel
Brianne:and understand that your feelings are what bring you to the present time, even
Brianne:when it's reflecting on your past, it brings it to the present time to the table
Brianne:for you to acknowledge and go through.
Brianne:I had to do a lot of work.
Brianne:It wasn't like a flash in a pan, an overnight thing of
Brianne:"everything's all right."
Brianne:It caused a tremendous amount of distrust, hence the fact that, like I said, I
Brianne:literally would verbally, factually hurt people to keep them far away from
Brianne:me because I didn't trust anyone., and
Joshua:Wait, wait, wait.
Joshua:Whoa, whoa, whoa.
Joshua:Wait, wait, wait.
Joshua:You're telling me that you have purposely pushed people away because of
Joshua:just what those experiences have been?
Brianne:Yes.
Joshua:Is that what you're telling me?
Brianne:Yes.
Brianne:All the things in my lifetime.
Joshua:Where have you been all my life, because-
Brianne:I literally put up, I literally put up a barricade
Brianne:of concrete, brick, titanium.
Brianne:I always would say I was pretty much untouchable.
Brianne:My brother used to get really, really upset.
Brianne:He goes, "Why don't you let people see the sweet heart that you have?
Brianne:Why?", and I literally would just phase out and look at him and go, "Why?
Brianne:All that matters is you.
Brianne:The rest of them can go fuck their self.", like I literally had that mindset.
Joshua:Wow.
Brianne:Honest to goodness.
Brianne:I literally had that mindset and then I used to be called a bitch
Brianne:alert, and it was because I literally did not want anyone near me because
Brianne:I was terrified of being hurt.
Brianne:I was terrified of being judged, hurt, and when people would say, "Oh,
Brianne:you're such a bitch", I'd go, " You're welcome", and I'd walk away, so this
Brianne:is not like just an overnight success.
Brianne:This was a lot of the universal team playing chess with me, where they would
Brianne:go, "You know, you need to stop asking.
Brianne:Stop asking our source.
Brianne:Stop asking God to send meters and start over."
Brianne:I said, "Yeah, but I said I'm not taking myself out of the equation.
Brianne:Take me out too."
Brianne:I'm not going, "Everyone but me", I'm like," Why are you judging
Brianne:me like that?", and the universal team, they never let me down.
Brianne:We always ended up kind of fighting and laughing about it, but they're
Brianne:like," No, you're not built for that."
Brianne:I'm thinking, "Oh really?", well, fact is, we do get caught up a lot in what
Brianne:our reality is, and our reality is our experience, and what I've learned is
Brianne:that my experiences can change like this and my reality and what I thought
Brianne:I knew, it can change like this, okay?
Brianne:With a snap of a finger, I can experience something that completely blows what
Brianne:I thought was reality all of my life out of the water, but I'm grateful.
Brianne:I'm grateful for the people.
Brianne:I'm grateful for the souls and their avatar bodies that took the heat from me;
Brianne:that planted the seed of coming and touch me and not cautiously touching me, hoping
Brianne:I didn't throw a spine at him, you know?
Brianne:I'm grateful for when I was engaged, when I was younger for six years, and I knew
Brianne:it just wasn't a hundred percent, but when I cried for probably three hard days
Brianne:because I didn't understand, and I was tired of always feeling like I was failing
Brianne:in relationships, I was just always tired of attracting the wrong people, but one
Brianne:of my coworkers, she ended up, when I told her, she knows that my ring wasn't
Brianne:on my hand and she got all emotional.
Brianne:She wrapped her arms around me and I was honestly, at that time in my life,
Brianne:very untouchable, but I had been around her enough that she was so sweet and
Brianne:sensitive that she had really worn down the fact that I wasn't really forthcoming
Brianne:emotionally where I would cry and be vulnerable, but I knew that there wasn't
Brianne:a malice cell in her body, but as soon as she saw that I wasn't engaged anymore,
Brianne:and I told her, I said, "We broke up.", she started crying and wrapped her
Brianne:arms around me and was squeezing me.
Brianne:I felt so uncomfortable.
Brianne:I felt like a cat in a basin in the water.
Brianne:I thought, I was like, I was freaking out.
Brianne:I was freaking out.
Brianne:I was like, "Ugh, Ugh."
Brianne:I thought my skin was burning.
Brianne:I had all kinds of things that if somebody ever tried to lovingly touch
Brianne:me, that it just was just bad, but I'm grateful that she had the courage
Brianne:to do that to me, knowing how much of a beast I could have been then.
Brianne:She was a huge impact for later on in my life of healing.
Joshua:Was your husband, Joe, which I also read on your website, somebody
Joshua:there to help you out, to kind of get you to that other side too, because I
Joshua:always find it weird at unique times, which, like you, coming in and I had
Joshua:know nothing about you, mind you, and we had this open as if we've been talking
Joshua:for 20, 30 years about our lives, and you were able to read that energy.
Joshua:Was Joe somebody like that for you, or how did that come about, because
Joshua:I feel like the, he has a big role in this story as well for you.
Brianne:He does.
Brianne:I'll tell you, he does, and I always tell people whenever I had a great quarter
Brianne:life crisis moment in 2005 where I was tired of being told whose daughter I
Brianne:was, whose granddaughter I was, and that's why I say when we get tired and
Brianne:we're just done and we're just, we just go, "I don't love this job anymore.",
Brianne:and when we finally get that point that we no longer want to clock in there.
Brianne:It was purposeful, okay?
Brianne:These pokes and prods and painful moments are great catalysts to get
Brianne:you out of your comfort zone into stepping into your actual lane, and
Brianne:that's pretty much what happened where I just was feeling there was something
Brianne:more to life and I didn't know what it was, and I would actually was least
Brianne:likely to ever leave my neighborhood.
Brianne:I wasn't even one to go to the grocery store by myself because
Brianne:I didn't like stranger danger.
Brianne:Everything was stranger danger and suspect to me, so I just happened to be at work
Brianne:one night and I was working third shift and when I walked past our bulletin
Brianne:board, there was a piece of paper with a red number and a business name on it,
Brianne:and that was all that was on there, and I just was drawn to it, like a bug to a
Brianne:light, and I wrote it down because I was all like, "I don't need people knowing
Brianne:that I'm looking at what the heck this is.
Brianne:I don't even know what it is."
Brianne:I took it home.
Brianne:I sleep in and I dialed a number and here it was a travel agency to
Brianne:go become a laboratory scientist, at hospitals that need temporary
Brianne:staffing, and I was like, oh my gosh.
Brianne:That was so foreign to me to think that I was going to ever pack up and leave
Brianne:everything I knew because the comfort of being in my hometown at least.
Brianne:It was messed up and not, not fulfilling, but yet we all
Brianne:get caught up in that comfort.
Brianne:I end up calling.
Brianne:I end up applying right away.
Brianne:I end up giving my two week notice, packing my car up and headed towards the
Brianne:Poconos, and my role during that time was; I didn't know a blessed soul there.
Brianne:I didn't know anything about there.
Brianne:They didn't know anything about me.
Brianne:I wasn't looking for anybody.
Brianne:I was all about trying to fall in love with myself.
Brianne:I was all very tomboy.
Brianne:I never knew how to walk in heels.
Brianne:I taught myself how to walk in stiletto heels.
Brianne:I didn't know anything about makeup because I was too busy climbing
Brianne:trees and arm wrestling my brother.
Brianne:I was the oldest girl for 10 years on one side, eight years on the other,
Brianne:so I knew nothing about being a girl, but I taught myself how to do makeup.
Brianne:I taught myself what to do with my hair, and off I went, and honest to goodness,
Brianne:the first night that my temporary coworkers asked me if I wanted to go out
Brianne:with them, and I'm thinking, "Okay, well, I'm having a quarter life crisis moment.
Brianne:Why not?", so I did, and the first night, and Joe's friend was actually buying me
Brianne:drinks, and Joe went past and he went, "Joey, this is Bree.", and Joe pushed his
Brianne:friend off the chair and said, "Tell me about yourself, Bree", and I, I was like,
Brianne:"Wow, this guy's pretty aggressive.", and most of the guys in my life were
Brianne:extremely passive, non go-getter, but he like locked in, and we picked up,
Brianne:much like you and I talking, it was like Joe and I just knew each other.
Brianne:It's almost like I just understood him on a level that no one else ever did,
Brianne:and he knew all about me, even though he didn't realize he did, and when I first
Brianne:met him, I told him, I said, "Listen.
Brianne:Don't fall in love with me.
Brianne:I'm here temporarily.
Brianne:I'm here to have fun.
Brianne:I'm here to find myself.
Brianne:I'm not here to be with the whole town, but you're a good looking guy, so if
Brianne:it happens, it's going to be with you."
Joshua:Here.
Joshua:Here's some stipulations.
Joshua:Let's just make sure we're on the same page here.
Brianne:Let's get on the same page.
Brianne:Do not fall in love with me and sure enough, here I am,
Brianne:I'll be with this man 18 years.
Joshua:Wow.
Brianne:And it's, honestly, it's because he had the tenacity.
Brianne:I tell everybody and they look at me like I'm crazy.
Brianne:I said, "I knew this man could take a punch", I knew this man.
Brianne:If I ever got fiery and I needed to grapple about it, this man would wrestle
Brianne:me until I, I was tired and all of the fight was out of me, and then I'm
Brianne:like, "All right, let's have dinner."
Brianne:He was the first and only male in my life who was such a solid man, a
Brianne:very genuine protective man, because he is retired army and he's been
Brianne:through his own interesting journeys.
Brianne:He's very fearless, but he looked at me one time and he went, "Sweetheart,
Brianne:contrary to popular belief, the world doesn't revolve around you.",
Brianne:and I said," Fuck it doesn't."
Brianne:I was like, "I don't know who you are, but you know who you're talking to?",
Brianne:but in the same token, I was like, "Whoa.
Joshua:Yeah.
Brianne:"Guy.", but it was what I needed.
Brianne:He's very calm.
Brianne:He doesn't get worked up about anything, I mean, he's had to take incoming fire, so
Brianne:he's actually extremely grounded and he's very thoughtful with guiding, but yeah,
Brianne:I needed a man who could handle my fire.
Joshua:Do you think that your fire is something that is really
Joshua:important in the line of work that you do, let alone your life and why?
Brianne:Absolutely, because it's how we use it.
Brianne:I always say we have four elements.
Brianne:We have fire, earth, air, and water, and you got to figure out which
Brianne:ones you're dominant in to find out where you need to really start
Brianne:working on to bring yourself balance.
Brianne:Mine is very analytical, which is an earth trait, and then fire's my second
Brianne:dominance, where I'm either the greatest cheerleader you could ever have.
Brianne:I could spritz some gas and I could start a fire inside you; to douse
Brianne:it with gas, and then we start evaporating all the emotion of water
Brianne:to get the earth underneath your feet.
Brianne:Knowing what you're dominant in can also tell you: how do you use it?
Brianne:What's your intent with it, because as much as I have earth and fire, I
Brianne:also can use it negatively, right?
Brianne:I can either be your biggest cheerleader or I can be Mount Vesuvius
Brianne:and burn this shit down, right?
Joshua:Yeah.
Brianne:So more than have to battle when I work with myself and anyone else, is
Brianne:that we distinguish what your dominant traits are and how have you been using it,
Brianne:and that really gives someone a tangible understanding about what it is that they
Brianne:feel that they've been missing and they've been hiding from and fearful that they
Brianne:couldn't do, and how to use what they're dominant to really give life to the other
Brianne:elements that they're really kind of like putting on the back burner, but yes,
Brianne:fire is very important to me because I love to get that shine in someone's eye
Brianne:where especially when, like you and I had our moment together before we even hit
Brianne:the record and there was that shine of fire in you and I was like, "Oh, Josh.
Brianne:Go boy.", you know, but that's really what makes it addicting.
Brianne:I could take people into their abyss, because most people, they won't go in
Brianne:there, or if they do, they're kicking and screaming to go into that really
Brianne:painful space, but the moment that I can show you where your fire is and
Brianne:what you could do with that, it kind of brings you that glow and that light
Brianne:into what you thought was a dark space.
Joshua:Wow.
Joshua:This part one was something that even after I hit the pause button to talk to
Joshua:my guest some more about what they had even said, I even mentioned the fact
Joshua:to her that this was something that we certainly need to continue talking about,
Joshua:and even with all the things that we had mentioned, even when it comes to falling
Joshua:in love all over again, that really displayed for me the true nature of what
Joshua:this guest was all about, so let's recap what we learned about in part one so
Joshua:that we have a foundation for what we are talking about even later for that matter.
Joshua:I want to say that for anyone that is ever looking for something to help them
Joshua:get to that next level, it's really about figuring out what are the facts and I've
Joshua:mentioned even in previous episodes about the importance of understanding what we
Joshua:observe, what we can measure, because there are the things that we tell as
Joshua:facts, and those are the things that we can also tell as stories if we are not
Joshua:identifying it correctly, and now I have to give credit to where credit's due.
Joshua:This is because of the author Joseph Grenny and his co-authors, which
Joshua:they wrote Crucial Conversations for Mastering Dialogue, so if you're ever
Joshua:interested in reading that book, I would encourage you to check it out.
Joshua:I'm a certified trainer in that and have been really enjoying just learning
Joshua:a lot more about that experience, especially when it comes to identifying
Joshua:those two things and teaching others, but we have to see people for what
Joshua:they really are, and yes, that is a very controversial statement in itself
Joshua:because we can easily make judgements.
Joshua:We make biases, we make prosecutions before even having a jury to figure out
Joshua:what is the truth and what is not the truth, and we even have a society that
Joshua:builds upon those sort of foundations and sometimes those foundations get
Joshua:shaken to the core, but I think that we need to be able to view it from all
Joshua:angles, which comes into the fact or the conversation about self preservation.
Joshua:Now I have to tell you that even as a coach myself, we have to figure out
Joshua:what are the things in which we're just setting up ourselves as barriers with, as
Joshua:opposed to other things that might be just protecting ourself from an uncomfortable
Joshua:truth, but we still need to hear that truth as well, and it's really about
Joshua:speaking to ourselves, and I love the fact that Brianne really mentioned a lot
Joshua:about that, especially with her field in which before even being a scientist
Joshua:for that matter, she moved into these different types of conversations with
Joshua:other people to eventually get to where she is now, which is doing this sort
Joshua:of hard work with other people, but there was also a trial and error in her
Joshua:life in which she was trying to figure that out, not only with the people that
Joshua:she was with, but who she ultimately got the support from: her husband Joe,
Joshua:which I have to immensely thank Joe for being somebody that encourages Brianne
Joshua:through the different types of things that are happening, but we have to sit
Joshua:in that damn space sometimes of what is really needed to be worked through,
Joshua:and I say that "damn space" because sometimes we have to struggle through it.
Joshua:It's so difficult to outpace and outweigh those different things that are happening
Joshua:in our life that might be setting us onto the other side that might not make
Joshua:us feel so good about ourselves either.
Joshua:I think that we need to see it from all angles, and that means,
Joshua:simply put, that we are not just looking at it by ourselves.
Joshua:We need to have that retrospection from somebody else.
Joshua:We need to have that conversation with someone else so that we're able to find
Joshua:the signs, that maybe the signs that we have been looking at are not necessarily
Joshua:the true signs of where we need to go.
Joshua:In other words, those are the false signs that are creating some of the
Joshua:things that are happening in our lives.
Joshua:The people that we find oftentimes are those false signs.
Joshua:They might not have the best intentions in mind, and I have worked with people
Joshua:that have thought for so long that those people that they were helping were not
Joshua:really helping them either, and those are the people that sometimes we need
Joshua:to take a step back and ask, "What is the relationship that I'm truly having?
Joshua:Am I really getting confidence from that relationship?
Joshua:Is it making me determined to keep doing my very best?", and that's when
Joshua:we start to erect those barriers.
Joshua:Those barriers can be very powerful.
Joshua:Those can be barriers in which we are setting ourselves up to never be able
Joshua:to cross, and I know for myself, as your podcast host, have done several of those
Joshua:barriers, which even to me, sitting here and listening to Brianne talk about
Joshua:those during part one, made me really think about what I have to do to continue
Joshua:breaking down those big barriers that I had set up even when I was a kid, because
Joshua:you see, it isn't just about what people do and what people have been able to do
Joshua:in my life to get me outside of them to look at what I have created, but it's
Joshua:also been facing the hard truth, when the truth isn't necessarily clear cut.
Joshua:I love the fact that she talked about the four elements:
Joshua:fire, earth, wind, and water.
Joshua:No, this isn't a Captain Planet episode for all my Gen Xers
Joshua:and millennials that are older.
Joshua:We probably watched that wonderful cartoon series growing up, and yes, it
Joshua:had a lot of suggestions about taking care of the environment, making sure that
Joshua:we are good stewards of the resources that we have on this earth, but don't
Joshua:you think that Captain Planet actually had some of the bigger aspects in mind
Joshua:when it came to the different things that he was influencing the children on?
Joshua:No, he wasn't brainwashing, as I've read so many different types of articles about
Joshua:that growing up, even as a adult, about how that cartoon series really probably
Joshua:defined a generation of environmentalist.
Joshua:I'm not saying that the environment isn't important either, don't get me wrong,
Joshua:but I think that for Brianne, using those four elements essentially creates
Joshua:some of the definitions of the humanity and how we interact with this world.
Joshua:She mentioned to me even afterwards that the concept of earth is analytical,
Joshua:and she identified that in me too when it comes to processing different types
Joshua:of situations, and I think that's where we need to be respectful of
Joshua:the fact that those four elements in itself can have a domineering factor
Joshua:and they should be rated as important, because those create some of the
Joshua:basic tenets of who we are inside.
Joshua:Now I'm not going to be like Brianne, and I've even mentioned an even a
Joshua:previous interview episode in which I talked about the fact that we all bring
Joshua:your unique perspectives, particularly when it comes to even coaching for that
Joshua:matter, even public speaking, but we need to get involved with what's needed
Joshua:to have ourselves step into the life that we really want to have, and having
Joshua:the friends, or even the husbands and wives for that matter, that creates some
Joshua:of those things, can drag us from those stories that we're telling ourselves, and
Joshua:create some of the best stories that we ever thought possible, and I think that
Joshua:we should be concerned with not only the self preservation that we try to have,
Joshua:which I'm not saying that we should take down all the barriers, but we should be
Joshua:open to the fact that if we change our mindset with being interconnected with the
Joshua:signs, even if they're very few and far in between, we might even find people that
Joshua:are willing to work through us to help us understand what is truly important,
Joshua:and I think that is something worth considering, especially in this world that
Joshua:needs those different types of people.
Joshua:I think that as long as we are keeping ourselves open-minded to those vast
Joshua:possibilities, especially with the different types of elements that work
Joshua:in our favor, we can get people involved in order to help us, and maybe, just
Joshua:maybe erect those barriers that we've had for 20, 30 or even 40 years.
Joshua:Now I have to say in part two, this will be something that allows me to continue
Joshua:building upon not only we have talked about today, but also what we'll talk
Joshua:about tomorrow in our next episode in which covers part two of episode 52, but
Joshua:for now, thanks for listening to Speaking From The Heart, and I look forward to
Joshua:hearing from your heart, very soon.
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